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Wednesday, January 17th, 2007
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p.s. this is fucking awesome!!!
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Monday, January 1st, 2007
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So, I decided to bring back the lj.. Well not really this one.. This one wil probably stay undeleted but I think I'm through with the on my own stuff being as high school has been over and now i'm in a different part of my life. I actually made a new livejournal.... http://marystravels.livejournal.com/ add me!! Thats bascially for when I go to England (countdown is t minus 9 days!! what what??!?!) I'll be posting pics updating regularly of how i'm making out...etc. etc. It was mostly for my family (mostly moms) because she seems genuinely upset that I'm leaving...and worried. But thats what moms do i guess. so yea..thats the spot. myspace probably isn't coming back though. Oh well. And I havent wrote anything in the new lj because well....nothing to say yet. Except for the countdown which has been going on for too long as it is. I think I'm reading to just go now. A little nervous but I'm not regretting my decision of doing this anymore. Everything will be fine. Just uber excited about everything. I really hope people will actually come and visit me while I'm out there but I kinda doubt it. sigh. oh well. I'll be fine and it will be an amazing experience. okay..so anyway...this entry was just to let everyone know that i'm still alive and that i have a new lj...
http://marystravels.livejournal.com/
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Tuesday, November 14th, 2006
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I think I'm kinda definitely sick of school right about now. At least Thanksgiving break is coming up next week. Too bad it's only a 4 day vacation. I would love to spend most of my time sleeping but I guess it's more advisable to get some work done. Blah. All I've got to say is thank god I'll be in England come January because some people are truly pissing me off. Then again, I'm going to miss others so much I dont know how I'll survive without them. ahh, i'm too excited to think about anything else anymore. Not good..must go back and study for my Stats exam. I've been putting it off way too much and this is definitely not helping.
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Saturday, November 11th, 2006
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such a good day....man...its almost 5am...im tired. wow...this is college.
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Saturday, November 4th, 2006
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I can't wait til I'm out of here!! I'm so fucking done with it. I'm done i'm done i'm done. I dont want to do this anymore. I am completely 100% done with the bullshit and with everything. DONE!!! I dont care anymore. I cant care anymore. There's no point. Completely worthless, negligible, overlooked, i want out and i never want to look back. its over and its been over and i just need to accept that. DAMN IT WANT TO LEAVE!! God, why isn't it January yet damnit?!?!?
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Friday, November 3rd, 2006
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"Sometimes the things that take forever, last forever; and sometimes things need to fall apart for better things to come together, and what is meant to be will always find it's way...I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up; it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories..."
totally stole that from Laura's away message. hahaha
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Thursday, November 2nd, 2006
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So I went to the dining hall to get meself some food. On my way back, I swear to you this is no lie, A SQUIRREL YELLED AT ME!! Well, I for one never heard a squirrel make any sound whatsoever before. So when it starts shreaking, I sure as hell got my butt away from it. hahaha
It's a gorgeous day and I was in such a pissy mood in the morning because I've been studying non stop, but after going outside and taking a short walk, things are looking a bit brighter. Now, only Louie will be able to vouch for me, but I was hoping that my inevitable death would preferrible come today before my physics exam. THerefore, I would not have to take it and all would be amazing. However, after going for my walk, I see things in an entirely different light. I DONT GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT PHYSICS!! sure, it is important, but if i fail, then i fail. Ill take it over next year. There are so many more important and amazing things going on in my life and so many wonderful people. hahah, I'm feeling all optimistic. This is fun.
P.S. something else that makes me uber happy:
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Sunday, October 8th, 2006
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| Time: | 10:30 pm. |
| Mood: |  aggravated. |
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I really have no idea why I even bother with physics. For some reason unknown to me I cannot do it to save my life. And its not even a lack of trying..which kills me above anything else. I'm actually trying and studying for this stupid subject and there is still no improvement. I read everything in the book thus far. I even read the book while doing the stupid webassign crap that's due and I KEEP GETTING IT WRONG! I don't know what it is that I'm doing wrong. Actually, ya know what. I do know what I'm doing wrong. I am being so stupid. Silly me for not being psychic and trying to figure out how my teacher is thinking. I'm so silly. But seriously, this isn't as hard as their making it. It's definitely not. I used to help people in high school do physics homework and I never even took the friggen class. And now I cant even seem to fathom what they're asking half the time. This is completely ridiculous and I hate that it's making me so upset. I want to just drop it but I would have to take it eventually anyway so I should just get it over with now. Looks like I'm going to be skipping work a lot more often so I can go to tutoring..(which, mind you, is pointless because I've been to tutoring for other classes and I sure as hell knew a lot more than the tutors did). sighhhhhhh
btw...bio exam went really really well today. At least I'm doing great in my other classes. I really don't get what my brain has against physiscs. I really dont know. I can't wait til college is over. I am so done with this bullshit. I'm so sick of paying people to aggrivate me and make me completely miserable. Wow, and I was in such a good mood earlier today. See, this is what happens when you start doing physics. Just ruins you're entire outlook on life. It probably makes people suicidal too. They should outlaw it.
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Saturday, October 7th, 2006
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i'm cold and i dont want to study....
just thought you should know
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Thursday, October 5th, 2006
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So this week has sucked. ..just a little though. It's just been uber busy. Exams exams exams. Especially in typical Rutgers style. Awkward times and all close together. Tuesday-Stats. Wednesday-Bio quiz. Thursday-Phys. Sunday-Bio. yea yea yea...well anyway, it'll all be over sunday so whatever. But a few things made me extra happy today. The fact that James came over to watch ER before my exam. Plus, he brought me the new Little Mermaid DVD PLUS CD!! WHAT WHAT!! Totally awesome. I think I'll watch it tonight. Second thing that made me happy was that while I was waiting for the bus some random girl said she'd give me a ride back to Cook. LOVE THAT! Seriously, especially since i was talking to my lab partner after the exam and when her boyfriend came to pick her up she didnt even offer me a ride. Hello. I live really close to wear you live. Why wouldn't you just ask to be polite. Or, if you wanted to make sure it was okay with him first ask him then when he says yes (which who wouldn't its not like its out of the way) come back and tell me and then i don't have to wait in the cold. It's called politeness. It's called being a good simaritan. It's called Marylou doesn't want to wait for the bus and if she had a ride she'd offer you so be nice and offer her. Sometimes I think I'm too nice and I need to stop. But then another good person THAT I DONT EVEN KNOW says she can give me a ride. Awesome to the extreme. I love her! hahah. Tomorrow I'm going to Arirang on 9. So excited because I havent eaten there since I played travel soccer (5+ years ago). yay for Carlos's birthday!!! now it's bed time...or Mermaid time. Who knows. In conclusion, TOODLES!!!
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Friday, September 22nd, 2006
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blah, ive been in a weird mood lately and I hate it. I thought I'd be better today but I'm not. Every little thing irritates me. And the things that don't irritate me make me sad..sad enough to cry which in itself is disgraceful. For example, last night while watching Grey's Anatomy and ER...I was balling my eyes out...for no reason what-so-ever! well, it was a little sad but I dont cry for sad movies. i just dont! And I hate that I was crying. And I hate that I'm like angry for no reason. And I hate that all that would please me is just one thing and I can't have it. And, at the same time, I dont want it. At least it's the weekend and I only have one more class left then I have to go to work. But then it's Jamie's Toga Party which will hopefully be fun. See...I feel so confused right now. I want to go to that party but at the same time, all I want to do is go home. sigh. I didnt get a chance to go to New York this week. It sucks...free train rides go to waste. Last night I was thinking maybe I'll just go into the city by myself tomorrow. Go to a museum, see a movie, maybe go to the Statue of Liberty )because Ive never been there).. then again, there is a football game tomorrow and Rutgers is totally killing it this year which is awesome. I bet that just jinxed them. oh well.
This is because I can spell konfusion with a k and I can like it
Its to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
It's to Jimmy Eat World and those nights in my car
When the first star you see may not be a star.
I'M NOT YOUR STAR?
This song just makes me feel better. I love it...still.
There's always just one question on my mind: Why?
DidyouknowImissyou?DidyouknowImissyou?DidyouknowImissyou?DidyouknowImissyou?DidyouknowImissyou?DidyouknowImissyou?Didyouknowimissyou?Imissyou.
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Tuesday, September 19th, 2006
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| Time: | 11:12 am. |
| Mood: |  okay. | | Music: | Jack's Mannequin - La La Lie. |
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I am such a baby about some things. Like the stuff that happened with the room in the beginning of the year. I was pissed about that..still am actually. And then yesterday something else pissed me off. I'm not going to get into it but this whole living with certain people thing is getting worse and worse and i hate it. Like, Jamie is completely cool. I love her! <33 but well....urg, what the fuck is the point? god, girls are so fake. i hate that. just be upfront. I should be more upfront too. Like saying "yo bitch. you cant always get what you want" damnit..i got into it..
Anyway, i should start heading to the bus stop now but i want to finish this. I really think i've been maturing a lot lately. I feel more independant. I pay for my own stuff now and I dont expect anyone else to pay for it either.. what sucks is that my cash flow is running low since I barely work at the labor center anymore and I still havent gotten the job at the catering hall (which i would so rather do than the labor center). I mean, i still have money in the bank but i'm a bit stingy on using it since it took all summer to actually get that much saved. oh well. i guess i can always get it back later. hahah SHOPPING SPREE!! jk jk. But yea...i'm like completely different now. I got a new phone which i L-O-V-E so much! I got a new haircut..which is okay. at least all the blonde is gone and its my natural hair color now so i dont have to dye it. Some other new stuff. I gave blood for the first time yesterday and almost passed out. good stuff. I'll save that story for another time though. so anyway stuff like that is all good. actually, i better get going..i can't miss physics... definitely my hardest class this year. it totally doesnt make sense!! I should have taken it in high school. blah. plus i need to finish writing my study abroad essay..my gpa's back up so hopefully i can do it...idk though..ahh so nervous about that and i dont even know if i was accepted to do it yet. damn... BYEE
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Wednesday, September 13th, 2006
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so..School hasn't been bad so far. Busy? yes. Stressful? perhaps. But definitely not bad.
Today during Bio Lab...I must have the dumbest group ever..idk. like I kinda feel bad but hey, at least they got lil o' me to watch over them. haha. Nah..i'm kidding..to an extrent. No, but it felt good to be the one who knew what to do and who know what was going on. Sure, sometimes I just like laying low and letting other people do stuff for me but at the same time...i like explaining things to people. It just makes me feel so...smart?
Above anything else I like being thought of as a smart person. Sure, being called beautiful occasionally can turn a blue day into bright pink but theres nothing better than being told your smart..AND ACTUALLY BELIEVING IT!!
I had to write a resume today for one of my classes that I have tomorrow and I realized that I truely have nothing impressive on there. And if that is the case, how will I ever get into Pharmacy School/get a job out in the "real world"? Oh the concerns of the no bodies. lol. I really need to go back to RWJ and volunteer again...except really do it this time instead of just saying that "I might do it today. I might do it tomorrow."
I havent been too concerned with returning to the Labor Center. I'm sorry but it's definitely not worth my time. Whats the point of working there? It has nothing to do with my field of interest. They definitely don't pay me that much. Some of the people there get on my nerves. yea...there's no point. THe only good thing is the leniency that I don't have to go in. And if I don't want to go in I don't have to call out. It's complete freedom that I never experienced in a job but... at the same time, I need that notion that if I dont go I'll get in trouble. Because then I'll actually have some motivation to go to work...and stay there!!
We're having a party Saturday night. It's about time. haha. Couldn't last week b/c i was working. COuldn't the weekend before that...because i think thats when i moved in actually... hmm. So anyway, yea. Party. yay! This year's apartment is so much better than last year. I mean me, al, and jamie get along great. Laurie is pretty cool too. I dont see myself having a problem with her. But its mostly great because we all do our own thing and we're not in eachother's face. Plus, we're all pretty busy so normally someone get alone time in the apartment..which is always comforting. It's better than having a fat couch potatoe sitting on the couch all day long because she's got nothing else to do and no where else to go. Yea, I'm mean. I don't care. Get over it.
On another note...I'm tired. I should get to sleep. I just finished my Spanish hw. It was to burn a CD with your favorite song on it...preferable a spanish song but that wasn't a requirement. I chose Suavemente - Elvis Costello. I gotta say that its definitely my all time favorite spanish song EVER!! <333 It's just so perfect. And anyway, all the other spanish songs I have on my computer that I really like are a bit..hmm ...."dirty". In the fact that most of them are about sex...and sexual acts I probably shouldnt bring it to show and tell. I think my teacher might have a heart attack if she heard the lyrics "Empecemos en la playa. Terminemos en la cama. Trae la toalla porque te vas a mojar. En flex, mami, en sex. Lay on my bed and prepare for sex." haha i love it. And i could totally picture the look on her face if she heard that. I'm really enjoying spanish class. Never thought I'd say that.
okay. i'm really tired. James and I are going to see Aerosmith tomorrow at PNC. Too bad we have lawn seats and it's suppose to rain...darn, But i know it's gunna be good times b/c its always good times when we're together. haha. I dont want my rose to die!!! kk goodnight for real this time. Peace Out Home Slice.
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Tuesday, September 5th, 2006
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| Time: | 2:45 pm. |
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Back at school. Of course there was drama. I hate two faced people but whatever. Not even going to get into it. I already had 2 classes. SPanish teacher seems really nice. Physics teacher nice too. I stopped by at work and hung out there for a little. It's cold and rainy outside and I hate it.
Yea, this was deleted. Yea, it should have stayed that way. But ... whatever. lol. i have no reason why i undeleted it. It's not important anyway.
P.S....if you talk shit about someone then please tell me why oh why they are going to be coming to hang out at OUR apartment!! OMFG!! It's all so fucking fake. How can you BFF with someone that you talk shit about?!?! HOOOWW!!?!? yea...I never want to be friends with someone like that. ew.
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Friday, August 11th, 2006
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maybe one day I'd even let you read the completely private entries... maybe. but then again..who really cares.
***I always tell the girls, never take it seriously, if ya never take it seriosuly, ya never get hurt, ya never get hurt, ya always have fun, and if you ever get lonely, just got to the record store and visit your friends.***
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Wednesday, August 9th, 2006
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Totally sick of life at the moment.
-car is totally sucking. Got it back today. It cost $300 for the tune-up but it's definitely not working like it used to. :o(
-I feel like I'm working constantly...even thought I'm not really but I can't do anything because at some point I probably have work during the day.
-I still hate living over here and I probably won't get over it. I wish I could just move out already...but then again school does get me away from here so thats good.
-I want to go out and do stuff but I can't because of my car.
-I normally can't do anything because my summer has consisted of me babysitting my 10-year old sister. now..isnt 10 old enough to stay home by yourself?!? I THINK SO!
-Elena invited me to a party on Friday but I can't go because i have work 3-11pm
-most people at CVS are totally cool. It's fun going to work sometimes but then again there are those people who just get on your nerves. Theres 2 in particular who should just leave because i don't like them. (1's a pharmacist. the other is a grandma. PEACE!)
-I miss my family. Louie is still in DE (even though she will be coming back on friday) and my cousins and aunts are still in Colombia... I just miss sleeping over Nasly's and going into NY with her and Carlos and Luz. Theres a movie playing over there (thats not playing anywhere else) that I really want to see. Elena would like to see it to. But unfortunately I don't have much time off for the next 2 weeks...
-I'm so not looking forward to this "family vacation." because 1. it's so gay. we're going to Hershey Park. 2. I can't stand being with my family for 2 days. urggg... hahah okay maybe not that last part but we'll see. Sometimes we can have fun but I'm not really optimistic about that.
-I dont have any good books to read and it's driving me crazyyy. I need a way to pass the time.
-I DONT KNOW WHEN WE MOVE BACK IN FOR SCHOOL AND NO ONE WILL TELL ME!!!!
Lumberton is the most boring place on Earth and being stranded here over the summer with no reliable car really really really reallly really really reallly really sucks...
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Tuesday, August 8th, 2006
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fyi if you ever wanted to read it...
i do put some of the stuff i write
into a friends only type of thing.
so if your ever feeling curious...
just log on and you can see it
this is a special note to just one person.
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Thursday, July 27th, 2006
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So Orgo finished up last thursday. It was a glorious day. The final wasn't too bad then I went up to Old Bridge and hung out with the famous James Gamble of course. I forgot what we did but I'm sure it was fun... Then Friday and Saturday work. And Sunday and Monday off. I finally finished rereading all of the Harry Potter books. I love love love the 6th. I don't think I loved it quite as much the first time but now..urg..I sometimes reread the last two chapters now if I'm feeling a bit blue. So after reading Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince I've had this urge to see JK Rowling in NYC. I've known about it for awhile but I was never so determined to go. It's on Aug 2 (Wednesday) at Radio City Music Hall...It's some charity thing. Right now, I'm waiting on tickets on ebay. I have work that day but I'm sure I can find someone to cover for me if need be. She's gunna be reading the 6th book. and answering questions and such. Psh, I don't care how much of a dork I am..I love it all so much and I can't wait til the 7th book is finally released!!! sigh. Next year...supposedly on 7/7/07. Which makes sense since theres 7 horcruxes and since its the 7th book. hmm... Anyway I'm dying to go but thats quite obvious.
Today is Ve's Birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLLLL!!!! So, Claudia and I were suppose to go up to North Jersey today for a variety of reasons but I decided against it b/c gas is expensive and it sucks! So instead we went to a lake by the house. It's only a 1/2 hr away and its quite lovely. The water is red though??? My dad said that it might be because theres clay at the bottom but idk. I like it though. We came back home and ran some errands then went to the gym. I'm going to start going more often. I'm thinking everyday but I doubt that will happen. I intend on having fun for the rest of the summer though. I can't wait for that weekend when I dont have to work. Hitting up Brooklyn with Elena and probably clubbing and such. Then hanging out with James who knows where? Water Park? Beach? Oh the possibilities are endless when your young... haha. But can't forget about work considering that's how I'll have the funds to do all this stuff with. hmm..Jack's Mannequin...tickets are a bit expensive. Not really..just $25-35 but still. Plus idk if I can get off work. Oh well...I guess I'll have to wait for the next time. I'm gunna stop working on Aug 18 to go on vacation with the family. It's gunna be short because chris can't really take off work but it's cool. It's the first vacation that all of us will be going on....+1 b/c Lina's coming too!! She's such a doll. I should have picked her up from school today! Darn. Then I'm assuming I'm moving in the next week but who knows. It going to go by so quickly. :o(
Lately all I've been wanting is 1 long stem pink rose....or some thing else just as sweet... hmm
So yea..Beaching it up hardcore...so if anyone wants to meet up one day or something let me knoww!!! I LOVE SUMMER! I LOVE THE SUN! woot woot!!
P.S. I won those tickets to the Harry Potter thing in NYC.. haha. It's for Wednesday Aug 2. LOUIE CAN YOU GET OFF??? Too bad you Baustistas gotta be in Colombia then I could have taken one of you if louie couldnt come. Oh well...I'm sure I'll think of something. :o)
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